My mind. . . it is a changin’

Changing leaves_Woods

Aaaaaannnnd now I have decided to change my focus for NaNoWriMo. The reasons first:

          I am not a very good “pantser” (someone who writes by the ‘seat of their pants’ – or free-writes their whole novel). While I don’t pre-plan everything, I need a good idea of where I am going. That happens in the preparation stage.

          Even if I could wing it, I don’t have a really solid antagonist for Konor’s story. Without a good antagonist, what’s the point of the protagonist?

          I can tell you what would happen. I would struggle with the story, maybe getting a start on it, become frustrated, and then stall out. And then not only would I not get any writing done on the new story, but I wouldn’t work on my current story and I wouldn’t edit my other story.

          A month of nothing.

          So, I am adjusting my NaNo plans. Since they don’t coincide with the ‘rules’ of NaNo, I guess you could say that I am not actually participating. But, what I will be doing is setting my goal to finish my current book (Zee’s story) in the month of November.

 

The nice thing:

          As a pre-published author, I have the liberty to change my mind. I am not tied down to a contract (mostly because I don’t have anything worth tying down yet 🙂  ). My job right now is to learn the craft the best I can so that I can tell my stories in a way that will transport the reader.

          When I thought about starting the new project for NaNo, I had to weigh that out with the importance of finishing what I am working on.

          I will learn more by finishing the book I am doing right now than fighting with a book I am not prepared to write.

And thus- my mind has changed. I will still be typing madly in November, just not on a brand-new shiny book. That will come later.

I am grateful that I have the leeway to change gears and give myself some breathing room with all the other things that are crashing in November.

What are you grateful about in your current situation?

NaNo Ponderings

November is quickly approaching. And if you don’t know, November is NaNoWriMo. National Novel Writing Month.

It works best if you are prepared.

October is the time to prepare and that time is coming to an end. So now is the time to panic! – Just kidding.

Preparing means, to me, understanding who your story will be about. The Characters Drive the Story.

 

I have been thinking about which story idea I wanted to work on. The one that is buzzing around my head right now comes from a flash fiction I did a long time ago. It was a 600 word story contest that I entered – they supplied the first and last lines and you had to write from there. http://wp.me/pC7Og-4O (this is the story so you can read it, if you wish)

structure

Now I have my beginning structure. I always liked the world possibilities and thought about expanding it. This jumping point gives me a small nugget of what will come. That scene may not even be in the story, it depends on what happens with the rest of my planning.

That structure, or initial idea, needs a lot of expansion to make it work. I need to figure out my characters, my antagonist, my conflict, everything else that makes a story enjoyable, and make an outline before November 1st.

Let it begin! 🙂

Growing, Learning, Stretching-

Sometimes it is hard to learn something new.

Difficult because you have to acknowledge how far you still may have to travel. (Like looking at a map at the beginning of your trip)
But it can also be really, really cool.

I am currently working on my second book. And I am learning to use a program called Scrivener. It is pretty cool. I haven’t learned to use all the features yet, but I do really like that all my research notes, images, and outline scribbles can all be kept together with my manuscript. Fun stuff-

  update

This is a good example of learning something new, that isn’t too scary.

Other times, learning something new can be scary because it takes a leap of faith. It can be hard to share the things you create with others because you don’t know how they will react. It takes a leap of faith.

However, if we are willing to listen to the responses, we may grow and improve.

It is a lesson I am still trying to learn.

The contest I entered for the League of Utah writers sends back your entry with the judge’s notes on them.

Scary? Yes. But also an awesome chance to learn!

So it was fun to see all the positive comments like “Good voice here”, or “Good view into her thoughts here.”

I can learn from those, I can see what I did right and try to use that method again.

But, I also loved to see the comments like this: “You need a bigger hook here.  You can achieve this by slowing down and showing us the setting and the characters.  Describe the important things in this scene” and “Good idea to establish the bond here, but I would also like to see a bigger hook and maybe some foreshadowing of the next chapter.”

Those comments teach me new skills that I need to learn to improve my storytelling craft.

These are exciting things – it makes me want to jump back into my story and examine all the pieces it needs to convey the story in my head.

What other things do we learn that may be scary at first?

 

It’s Alive!

First Chapter Contest _ LUW

Hi!  It is beyond time for a revival of the blog.

While I haven’t been posting, I have been reading and writing. I don’t believe I will post the list of all the books I’ve read in the meantime. You don’t have all day, do you?

I have found a couple fabulous new resources for my writing.

The first: I joined the League of Utah Writers. My chapter, Utah Valley Writers, is amazing. It has been great to meet with them to do critiques and the instructional presentations they have. I learn so much from everyone’s input on all the critiques (beyond just on my own writing.)

The second: iWriteNetwork . Not only are there great, instructional posts and great conferences, but the coolest thing is the chat room. At any time of the day you can find other authors there to brainstorm with, ask questions, or – my favorite – sprint. When we sprint, we will set a time (say, thirty minutes) and then everyone works on their projects and when time is up, we come back to report. It can be words written, pages edited, research done, outlines done, whatever we need to be working on. Sprinting helps someone like me who is , ummm attention impaired.

The best thing?

The amazing people I have met through both places. There are wonderful, supportive, good people out there.

The update:

I am still working two jobs, still have five kids, still bordering on insane, but I am also still writing and it is a good thing. I have my first book, which is finished but needs editing. I am working on my current book and am about halfway through the first draft. I entered the yearly contest with the League of Utah Writers, the first chapter division. I was totally caught off-guard when I won an honorable mention for the first chapter of my first story. I guess I won’t shelve it completely just yet. I am still grinning (see above picture for proof) and I am grateful for my family and friends and all their support!

Taking the plunge. . .

Imagine with me that you are at a beautiful mountain lake. (Yes, I realize that my picture is of a river – that is the ‘imagine’ part of this exercise)

Anyway- back to our imagination. You are standing on a small outcrop of rocks that juts out from the shoreline. You are thinking of jumping in the lake. You are in fact, planning on it and looking forward to it. And yet – you hesitate.

Why?

You know that the water is cold. Each of your friends that has jumped in has reemerged screaming and gasping for breath because of the abrupt chill. But now they are swimming happily, yelling for you to join them, claiming that it is ‘not so bad’. It looks fun and it even looks refreshing. It would feel good on your sunburned skin.

Maybe it has been a long time since you have been swimming. Maybe you are worried that it has been too long. Do people forget how? Is it like riding a bike? But, you also remember loving swimming

Maybe you remember very clearly the last time you did it. Floating in the water, the top layer warmed slightly by the sun, you could feel where the sun’s influence ended. There was a spot about half way down your leg that the water temperature changed and became colder. It felt darker, deeper, and maybe it even seemed thicker. Images of monstrous prehistoric fish nibbling on your toes flitted through your mind. Perhaps being unsure of the exact depth of your plunge has you a bit unnerved.

Or a combination of it all. . .

I am feeling this right now. My post-pregnancy brain is starting to feel like it is returning and I am ready to plunge back into my book. Only I hesitate.

Why?  There are a lot of other people swimming around in their writing right now. Saying that the ‘water is fine’. I should be able to join them, right?

It has been a long time since I was able to work on my writing. Have I forgotten everything? I do remember really enjoying it though.

Or maybe it is that I know how deep the lake really is. I can see that prehistoric fish waiting for me.

I think I am looking a a major rewrite. I have been trying to figure out how to put a complicated back-story in without an ‘info-dump’. I am realizing that perhaps my main character doesn’t even need the complicated back-story.

Does it really add to the story? Not just that, but is it essential to the story?

If not, then the whole purpose behind her being where she is changes. And that, changes everything.

So I stand perched on my cliff, ready to dive in and join the swimmers.

My question for you is: What thing are you wanting to do in your life and yet you hesitate? What is keeping you from plunging in?

LDStorymakers: boot camp

So I took the plunge and signed up for the LDStorymakers writing conference. It was last week and it was phenomenal!

I decided if I was going to go, I might as well get the whole experience. I signed up for the boot camp.

*Cue the scary music*

Boot camp consisted of taking your first 15 pages of your work in progress (WIP) and work-shopping it with a small group.

My group had four of us attendees, and one “Sergeant”. Our Sergeant was Becca Whilite. She has two awesome books (contemporary young adult) out with a regional publisher.

I was the only one that hadn’t attended the conference before.  True confession time. . .

The night before I was so anxious about the whole thing I was a nervous wreck. I will, of course, blame some of it on exhaustion and some of it on pregnancy hormones, but the rest was all me. I was really asking myself  ‘what am I doing?’

I didn’t have anything to worry about. Everyone was fabulous. We took turns reading, or having our story read out loud. Then we all had comments and suggestions. I learned so much from the process of discussing everyone’s work. I will really be watching for Gail’s, Ashley’s, and Kenneth’s books to come out – they were that good.

When I read mine, they were really good at helping me figure out the rough parts. There was a large paragraph that made me cringe every time I saw it because it mostly seemed like info-dump (yuck). They helped me talk through suggestions to fix and integrate the information elsewhere. Yay! I am thinking I should look in to a writing group of some kind so that I can get more feedback, more often.

It was fun to see other peoples’ responses to my story. I know what I can do now with pacing and increasing the tension in a couple of spots. The whole process made me excited to dig back in and work on the story.

I would highly recommend the experience to anyone.

The rest of the weekend was also fabulous. I will post about the classes I was able to attend next time!

Alphabe-Thursday: X is for eXtra learning = eXtra fun.

This is an Alphabe-Thursday entry for Jenny Matlock’s blog.

I have two recent “learning experiences” that are prominent in my mind at the moment.

The first, was that in February I was able to attend a three-day writing conference – “Life, the Universe, and Everything” at BYU. I had never done anything like this before. I had been to a one-day workshop event, but nothing on this scale. From talking to other attendees I gathered that the format was a little different than some other conferences. Some conferences have a single presenter teach a class. There were a few presentations like that, and they were done really well, but most of the conference was done with panel discussions on a topic. There was an amazing array of local authors in the areas of Science Fiction, Fantasy, and Horror (that was the focus of the conference) and artists as well.

In general, just the atmosphere was energizing and re-motivating for whatever project we may have been working on. I had a great time!

I attended discussions on writing short stories, strong female characters, retelling tales, plot-storming, editing, and  pitching your work to an agent or editor. I even did a workshop where they read our first page of our story out loud (five of us) and the room of people commented on strengths and weaknesses. That one was scary, but I came out relatively unscathed.

It really has me contemplating the next conference and investing the money into it. I feel like I learned so much and yet I have such a long way to go still. The LDS Storymakers conference is in May. From what I have heard, it is more instructional – less panel discussions. The thought of going is really exciting; I just have to rationalize the money.

My second experience was making a wedding cake for my husband’s cousin. It has been more than a year since I have attempted something like this and I had forgotten how much I stress about it.

It was good that she was family, because I’m sure she was more forgiving than others might have been. All I could see were the problems and issues (like the fact it ‘slumped’ while sitting in the warm apartment all day), but the family liked it and she was just glad the whole planning process was over with. (Remind me not to do this again. . .)

Alphabe-Thursday: W is for Writing

W is for writing. This post is for Jenny Matlock’s Aphabe-Thursday. (Go check out all the other cool entries, I’ll wait here for you.) This time I wanted to share with you a short story I wrote last year for a contest on NPR. It was for their three-minute fiction contest. It had to be under 600 words, and it had to start with the phrase “Some people swore that the house was haunted”, and end with the phrase “Nothing was ever the same again after that.”  Those phrases were part of the word-count as well. It was tricky trying to fit the 600 word limit.  I didn’t win, but I had a lot of fun doing the story. I think I may want to revisit this story and expand it in the future. We will see.

Interrupted Boundaries

Some people swore that the house was haunted. Konor was one of the few people who knew what truly stalked the halls of his home. Brenn, his younger brother, knew but he was arguably still a child and living in the ashes of a lost lifetime. If there were ghosts, then there was a chance their father knew and still watched over the place he had been forced to leave. Perhaps the villagers recognized what they had done for a brief slice of time before they met their personal oblivion. Oh, and the thing that was formerly their mother knew.

Konor still relived that pivotal day every time he closed his eyes. His kind aged slowly, even with his blood diluted by his human father’s, and as such it had been many years of nightmares. He settled into bed, bracing himself for what would come. Brenn slept soundly in the bedroom’s other small bed; his nightmares took different forms. The heavy, gurgling breathing in the hall assured Konor they were still not alone. The memories came quickly; the colors more vibrant than they could have been, the smells sharper than he remembered.

The house had been perfect for their family. It was tucked into the edge of the forest their mother wouldn’t leave; unassuming, well-cared for, and full of love. Their mother came from the forest. She was a shape-stealer; a terrible creature of myth and legend. But, the love she carried for them had added a measure of humanity to her; enough that she restrained herself and resisted the lure of the forest.

Konor and Brenn played outside in the mud that day. Konor was first to hear the approaching voices. They seemed to grow angrier as they approached. Konor stood and pulled Brenn behind him as his father stepped out of the door. With a glance in their direction, their father smiled reassuringly.

“Hold tight boys. Don’t draw attention to yourselves.” He walked out from the house to meet the approaching mob. The men were clustered tightly, like frightened sheep. There were ten villagers, holding various farming implements as weapons. “Now Jacob,” their father addressed the man in front with a soft, jovial voice, “What seems to be the problem?”

“That thing can’t stay here Dilon.” Jacob pointed toward the house where their mother stood in the doorway. The large man’s brow glistened with sweat and his eyes kept shifting back to the men behind him. Konor could smell him from where he was, stale and sour. “It killed my chickens.”

Dilon had stiffened at the word ‘thing’ and his voice was now lowered, dangerous. “She is my wife and the mother of my boys. You know that Enid didn’t do that. You saw the fox tracks yourself.”

“How do we know it was a real fox and not that monster you took up with?” The men behind were jeering and pushing Jacob on. “How do we know that our families won’t be next?”

“That’s enough!” Dilon roared and stepped towards Jacob. There was a startled flurry of movement by Jacob. In the panicked flail, the hoe he carried connected with Dilon’s head. Konor hid Brenn’s eyes when he saw, as his father fell, the angle of his neck was wrong. In an instant their mother was there, crouched over him. The light in Dilon’s eyes faded and a scream tore from Enid. The scream started out human, but it swiftly changed into something . . . else, older and darker. Then there was blood. So much blood.

Nothing was ever the same again after that.

Alphabe-Thursday: M is for Making Excuses

I obviously haven’t kept up on my alphabet. So this is my “Making Excuses” post. (That was for “M”)

Making Excuses

Nauseated and Exhausted

Obstetrician and ornery

Pregnant and mushy-brained

Queasy still

Really tired

Super relieved I don’t have writing deadlines to meet

Trying to join the world of the living now. . .

So there you have my excuse, which got me through the alphabet up through ‘T’.  I am in zombie hibernating bear mode at this point in time. I am typically nauseated for the whole time I am pregnant. I am feeling like I’m getting the use of my brain back, so I hope to be much more present here.

Happy writing!

(Alphabe-Thursday:L) L is for Love (Lust)

This is for Alphabe-Thursday on Jenny Matlock’s blog. You should check out the other entries too!

I enjoy a good romance in my stories. I don’t like ‘romance’ stories per say, where the entire story is the romance, but I like the relationships to help add another layer to the stories. I do avoid those stories where things are too graphic. I think it pulls away from the story. So with that in mind,  I did put lust in parenthesis on purpose. First, to me love is a many layered thing. There are depths to love that are unending. However, that first kiss always has an element of lust to it. (Unless, of course, the kiss isn’t wanted. But that is a different story.) That chemical response is an important part of making the connection that can develop into love. So my entry today is a little peek into that first kiss.

This is a couple of friends that have just been through an ordeal together. They have escaped intact and are saying goodbye after the adventure.

“I can’t let you leave without telling you this.”  Lilly stepped up to Graydon, grabbed the front of his T-shirt, and pulled him to her.

Her face neared his and she paused a moment before their lips actually met. He was frozen, not moving at all. She took a deep breath and then slowly touched her lips to his. Graydon hesitated, but when there were no comments from the people walking past, he melted into the kiss with a deep sigh.

He buried one hand in her hair, holding her head, and placed the other on her lower back, pulling her closer to him. His grip was surprisingly intense. Not a bad surprise, but one none the less. His lips remained soft, gentle, and questing. After a moment, Lilly pulled back to look at him, searching his face for something.

A slow smile spread across his face as he opened his eyes to look at her. Those eyes that had deepened to a midnight-dark took her breath away. “Well,” he whispered, his voice rough. “That wasn’t really one of the things I imagined you would say to me after today. I thought you would yell at me for being an idiot.”

“I still might do that.” Lilly attempted a light tone, but she was glad he still held her in his arms, not sure if she could yet stand on her own.

“As well you should. And I would be glad to listen to all of it,” He glanced at her lips again, “If we could return to this conversation again as well.” He briefly kissed the corner of her mouth.

“I believe that could be arranged.” Lilly said with a giggle.